Tuesday, July 19, 2011

While you slept…
I watched you breathe
Watched what I thought was your silent goodbye
While you slept…
I broke down
Had my face wet with defeat…and watched you sleep
This is more than I can take
More than I’ll show you
But I thought you had felt my heart…
Broken and fragile
Open and pounding
Maybe I was wrong… and you were just asleep
But your words were so clear in that slumber…
And I wanted to believe your eyes were with me
This is more than I can take…
And you’re still asleep

Wednesday, September 29, 2010

Clear solitude
Swallowing white rocks of no pain

Into an abusive doorway
Out of this bloody stomach

I thought the sand gave way
But a badge brought me back

21 hours and a women still awake
Waiting for my arrival
For my storey

A broken mother still asleep
The ripping hands inside me
I fight to keep

How can I break this news
When I have his marks on my chest
When I don’t want to lose

Clear solitude
Pumped out of me
Clear solitude
Trying to make me see

Tuesday, August 24, 2010

She says it’s all lower and I can’t seem to hold her
Just another blurry moment in her glass world
It’s slipping away, all the control that seemed to be my cure

Foot steps to the kitchen with a spilled trail of self abuse
His abuse
If she wants it’ll be her last taste
Her abuse

Foggy screen and fingers burning
I can still hear her sweat hitting my chest
What I thought was my focus
Wanted to be her final test

If I crawl into this comfort once more
If I put on that robe and clean the sides
I’d wish for her to be awake

If she finds that story she lost…
He’d still make it all in his mind

Thursday, February 18, 2010

Glitter falls from my finger
And I'm happier than you thought id be
Hands falling, yours to the floor
And I'm greater than you said id be
Diamonds in my eyes
I feel you weighing
Down for all your empty tries
Ive watched this die
Ive become your lie
And now I know I'm never what you said id be

Saturday, August 15, 2009

I should know by now that Brick has some perfected error when it comes to Jenny. But somehow her machine still only strikes a wrong key.

I should know by now that Jenny still cries about my life. I should know how it feels, again, to wait for you. But… Somehow I got up and left.

I should know by now that I still love you. I should know how to see you. But somehow my phone is still the only treasure I get in my hunt for you.

Wednesday, August 12, 2009

Today I sat alone with words I fought to forget

Those solid nights so guarded by your past

Forever objective so not to regret

Tell me by your hand

I don’t need all

That I lost you

One thing I know… you never think

And it’s too late to hold on

Alone with your words

Let me tell you about a gentleman I once knew, most discreet

Most worthy of all the love

I’ll pled for you once more

I cut you out of shaped dreams only to see

A young heart eager to breathe

I’ve cut you just right

Hooks in arms I will ease your pain

Tuesday, August 4, 2009

i am burning. BURNING.
i want to turn you inside out and pour you down my throat
i want what is inside of you inside of me to push it down push it out wrap it around and around me and pull it tight
i want to break you open and see what's inside i want all of it
i want to spill you out on the floor and get in you on my knees i want you wet and messy and on me I want to tear at your magic like a beast i want you in my hair and slick on my skin i want you in my eyes and in my mouth
i want wild fistfuls of you pressed against my cheeks and i want to look in the mirror as you drip down my neck
i want to smell you and i want it to burn like like too much whiskey i want your rhythm in me slow and mean like an unfinished song i want you i want you iwantyou i'm fucking burning

i want you to turn me to gold because there is nothing else left